There are points in our life where we look back and see how far we have come. I have been looking back since yesterday. I wonder about my younger self. I wonder about why certain hard times didn’t give me a greater resolve, why those hard times didn’t push me to do better. I look at people who lived in the parallel time with me. Those my age and those older and even those younger. I don’t compare our actions, but our awareness. I think about my lack of confidence based in reality, based on my lack of experience. I consider the hard times and the fact that I didn’t reach out for help. I wonder at what life would have been like. The older I get and the older my friends get we look back. Sometimes we wonder and sometimes we say if I had known then what I know now. Reflection is good until it becomes fantasizing, then it becomes a waste of time. However, if reflection leads to self revelation, then you can think back and learn. I look back and wonder why I didn’t respond to certain things in a way that would have propelled my life to a better position, but instead settled for the status quo. There are many things if I could go back and undo, I would. There are also things that I would do. It is in some way too late to react to the hard times, but it is not too late to learn from it. So, I think back and hope that I can get the resolve to do better.
I hope that yesterday’s hard time teaches and inspires you to do better and enjoy your life.