Having F. A. I. T. H.

Let’s get to something that pushes the art world, hell the real world into action- faith. I am not talking about faith in god, or faith in the universe. What I am talking about is faith in your idea. Faith in a creative goal, faith in making a dream come true.

Most of the world looks outside to someone or something else to get them through the hardships of life. They pray to god to get them out of a situation. They have faith the universe is going to manifest what they want. They Have faith in mommy and daddy to bail them out. They have someone they believe has the ability to save them. They do not take ownership of making something happen.

But the artist, the creative, the writer, the dancer, the actor, They have a different Faith, they have F. I. A.T. H. with the guts backwards. There is an internal driver that they believe in. They believe they have to get better, they believe they have to do the work, they believe in their processes. The reason is they identify with the work. It is an expression of who they are, they cannot leave it to some one else. Which means they have to work through the hard times and desperate situation. They have F. I. A. T. H. which is simply put; Following Inspired Action Through Hardships.

It is a simple statement but true as true can be. The inspired artist, writer, creative worker, knows the inspiration is the easy part. Doing the work to the end, is work. It is actions they have to take. It isn’t pretty; it isn’t the first draft of a work, it is the tenth draft. It isn’t the oil painting, it is the hours of mixing colors and scrapped canvases. It isn’t saying the lines the first time, it is saying it them the hundredth time as if you mean it. It is band practice for hours in a garage. It is the ugly grimy work that turns off those who wish and pray for something to work. It is the dream being built through long days- pain- discouragement- it isn’t hustle it is fucking grinding- it is accomplishment in the face of all of life’s troubles with the inspired one as priority.

If you are in the creative field, the motto must be “don’t wish for it work for it.”

Oh, this sounds shitty, but the truth is if it is really inspired. You will love this grind. It might hurt but it build something that gives you a joy that others do not get to have. It gives you a pride and purpose that surpasses that of the dude who lives to vacation. Work is our play. Play is life. Life is a game we have decided to play.

Later Gator,


Post script: Alright, truth be told I was thinking of acronyms for faith and it wasn’t until I looked at it today that I had the A and I flipped. I said “Fuck it. It works this way and I still can remember it. I am keeping it.”

Don’t Kill Your Soul

So, being you is one of the craziest things you can do. The world is full of systems of thoughts and social structures design to make sure you don’t. Leaders of societies benefit when the society is homogeneous. Everyone is playing the same game by the same rules for the same prizes; that makes them easy to control and guide. They hate when you have a voice, especially one that doesn’t fit the mold.

The truth is none of us are the same and homogeneous cultures are a fabrication of forced social standards. We are unique and bring our skills, talents, and ideas to the table mixed with our personality. That means we are not all playing the same game. In fact the more creative we get the less we care about the game the group is playing and the more focused we get on our own creative endeavors. Doing this puts us out of bounds in the social structure of control. It is the very reason you cannot really teach creativity in school. Schools are the very opposite of creativity. You have one person in charge with all the answers and all you have to do is memories them and do what you are told in order to succeed.

Creativity is a problem-solving beast. Not because it is able to memorize answers. No, it is because it creates new solutions to old answers and sometimes brings attention to the fact that the old answers were wrong. It doesn’t look for leadership, at best it looks for guidance. Being creative isn’t for a select few, it is a part of everyone, it is very human, Being creative is forced out of most of us through social pressures to conform. It is done through the punishments for standing out and the rewards for not only fitting in but being at the front of the line.

It is up to you, to embrace you, your creative side and all. It is up to you to say I want something different. It is up to you to build a life you think is livable. You do not have to conform to the world.

To be fair, not all social constructs are bad. Not all social pressures are evil, some are truly good and help foster the individual. Being in a tribe, being in a society makes being an individual possible, but to do so it does take bravery to stand up and say this is me.

I gotta go,

Later Gator,


Writing About Your Life And How You See It

Nino Olson

I had wrote a twenty-two page reflection on the last twenty years of my life. To keep it short and to feel the blur of time I omitted huge amounts of life events. I boiled it down to what was important in my life, in my mind, and at work.

It became two drafts. The first a dark view. The second a positive review. The first drag was life happening to me. I was resentful of the good fortune and had enough excuses for the bad. In the second I intentionally worked through it to be grateful for the positive and realistic about the disappointments.

Here’s the point. We can all look at our lives in a positive or negative way. Even if we previously had a bad attitude towards our own life. We can change. All we have is this moment and we don’t need to taint it by continuing a negative outlook. Once I recognized I didn’t want that to be my story, I took a different view. I didn’t change the facts, just how I saw it. Twenty years of doing uninspiring work just to keep my family stable and healthy isn’t a story that inspires others, but it is my story.

I’m not sure if I will publish it, but I’m go lad I went through the struggle to write it.


Gator 🐊